A short relapse in blogging, for a good reason.

18 years ago, someone very special was brought into this earth. Her name is Ciara Hernandez. I have known her my whole life, and I call her my best friend. She deals with my quirkiness and weirdness. She has been there for me through thick and thin—to lean on in bad times and to laugh and make silly jokes with in the good times. We became close because we were both outcasts, shy, and without many friends. As we got to know each other, something just clicked. We are so different and yet, somehow, we are able to come together and have the most wonderful times. We have made some amazing and unforgettable memories that I will cherish for the rest of my life.

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To My Best Friend:

We have our serious moments, our disagreements, we bite each other, lick each other’s faces, laugh together, cry together, creep people out together, sleep together [;)], and so much more. I believe true friendship is having the ability to be YOU with that friend, without having to hide who you really are and expressing exactly how you think and feel without the fear of being judged. And I have that with you. You are my true friend. Even though we haven’t been close for that many years, I will always trust you with my entire life. You were the first person I told my secrets to. You were the first person I trusted. Thank you for being the most amazing friend a girl could ask for. You have become my sister. You are absolutely amazing and beautiful and I love you with all of my heart and I cannot imagine my life without you.

I hope you have a wonderful birthday. :)

Love,

Natali

Goodbye

I believe it is time to give this blog a rest.

It is harming me more than helping me.

Goodbye, It was nice while it lasted.

No More Secrets

I keep too many secrets.

I hide too many things.

I think that is what my problem is.

It all needs to stop in order for this to survive.

I want to do whatever it takes to stay afloat.

I won’t let this ship sink without a fight.

No. More. Secrets.

1.29.12

The realm of secrets has been opened.

I’m not worried about what will be found.

I’m ready to explain.

I’m done hiding.

I’m ready to fight, for us.

I’m not going to give up until we win.

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I kind of miss doing Project 365.

Once I stopped, I wasn’t able to see the beauty in the world around me as easily.. Life just got in the way.. Unfortunately, my camera is broken, and I’m having trouble saving up for a good camera.

I guess I could use my phone, the pictures wouldn’t be that great though.

Maybe I’ll start off slow, Project 52 (totally just made that up) a picture every week.

Last Sunday night at work, I built marble runs with the kids and got all nostalgic. I used to be a pro marble run creator. :)

1.27.12

Sometimes I feel like such a screw up.

Like I can’t do anything right.

Every time I try to do something right, it ends up blowing up in my face.

Should I just give up?

1.19.12

 

I feel like I’m suffocating.

Everything is just building up.

I’m trying to stay positive,

I don’t know how much longer I can keep this up.

There’s so much stress.

So much pressure.

I need to escape.

I’m scared.

Everything is going to come crashing down all at once.

And there’s nothing I can do to stop it.

1.18.12

I thought I got rid of you..

I guess my nocturnal companion is back to bombard me with worries, loneliness, and depression.

Lets see how much longer I can keep my head above water.